While working on my script for my first short film, I couldn’t help but to contemplate on some thoughts that came to mind. Earlier today, or I should say last night, a customer labeled me as being rude to her. Now, for many of you that do not know, I work as a Total Rewards Coordinator at Bally’s Casino. Allow me to give you the back drop of this type of job. I essentially work in two departments, both of which deal with customer service and their needs. One being Total Rewards itself, where customers come and complain and/or request information about their comps and rewards accounts. The other department is Bally’s Bus Center, where we greet mostly garrulous but sometimes intoxicated customers and give them slot machine vouchers. Now, on my course of learning the ways of God and what it means to be a Christian, I can say quite honestly that I do not have it all nailed down. When I look in the mirror, do I see the One that I try to resemble? The answer to that question is a resounding “NO!” Worse yet, when others see me and what I do and how I act, do they see the reflection of the One I say I represent. I might be able to speak for many with yet another resounding, “NO!” So here is a dilemma that I am faced with. If under one breath I say I represent Christ and His coming Kingdom, and yet I act in a manner that is contradictory to who Christ is and what His Kingdom represents, then am I not by the strictest of terms a hypocrite?
When the customer labeled me as being rude, I had to recheck myself. Mountains of excuses began to pile around me as I tried to shield myself from the pain of admitting that perhaps I was in fact rude. We tend to do that don’t we? When we are confronted with a nasty part of our personalities or when we are corrected with something we need to work on, we tend to make excuses to some how put the blame on someone or something outside of ourselves. We’ll say things like, “Well, they shouldn’t have done this…” or “They shouldn’t have said that….” Some how someone else has caused us to act unseemly, or in this case rude. But, when I looked closer at myself, I realized that I am the one who has to make a choice. And suddenly, something incredible happened. I realized that I have the final say. Even when things are not going my way, that doesn’t mean that I have to take out my frustrations on unsuspecting customers. Think about it. How can I possibly represent Someone who is the absolute image of God Himself if I can not handle my own frustrations? Am I not to handle the world with care and gentleness as a mother dove nurses her young? How can I become a public representative of Christ if I can not keep in check the parts of my personality that are ungodly?
I think when we take each day one by one, and surrender each day to our Father, we slowly weaken those parts of us that are ungodly. It can only happen by the Power of His Spirit. I, by myself, can not stop or subdue the evil nature within. That is why I need salvation. That is why you and me need Someone to redeem us. Our nature of ungodliness can not lead us to God. But since it is our nature, then how can we subdue it? Another Nature must enter within us and make war with the evil nature that lies within. And that is what I am going through my friends. There is a war that is being waged within me. On one side, there is the nature of sin and death, and on the other side, there is the nature of God and Jesus Christ. Only one can win in this battle and the one that I give the most attention to and the most time to will undoubtedly win. This is the battle my main character faces. He longs to be like the One who has called Him, only to discover that he still has a Human Nature he has yet to defeat within himself. This is the battle we find ourselves. Which Nature, which Will, which Life, will we live? And that question ultimately leads us to equally thought-provoking questions. What kind of battle do you face within yourself? What life are you trying to live? What destiny are you trying to fulfill? Have you known God and gotten to know Him? How do you measure up to Him that has the power to raise you to Eternal LIfe? Are you worthy to bear His name? These are questions that I ask myself everyday. Now, I am determined to represent the One who called me out of this world and into His marvelous Light. I hope that you too may catch a little of this contagious motivation to seek His face and to become just like Him. I pray that the answers to these questions will be revealed to you and that you will be transformed into a new creation, bearing His Nature of Righteousness.
Daniel C. Pickett